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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Again, Bikram yoga

Took Nicki for the 9:00am class.  Had done kettlebells yesterday, so I knew my body would be tired.  And indeed, it was.  Yow!  Tougher than the first time, in some ways, but I was more prepared for it.  Bikram style has one advantage over Ashtanga: the "internal heat" effect of Ujjai breathing creates cascades of sweat once you are moderately advanced.  That sweating produces an internal cleansing effect that is quite nice.  But with Bikram you get that whether you're advanced or not.  Also, because it's not as athletic, it functions quite nicely as a recuperative practise between grueling workouts.  This could be a lot worse!  Nicki did about twice as good as I thought she would.  Her focus and engagement was higher.  The girl is becoming a woman, and I like the woman I see, quite a bit.  Just love my kids to death, and hope they never doubt that.  It is such a joy to be able to share this space with her.  There were just three things I wanted to give my daughter:
1) A love of learning and working.
2) A healthy emotional life that expands out to include healthy relationships with others.
3) A love of her body as a toy, a tool, and a pet.
Because of my divorce from her mom, Toni, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to fully give her these things, but God is giving me another chance.  It is such a blessing to have her in my home, a chance for her and Jason to bond.  Wouldn't be possible without Tananarive's open-hearted cooperation.  I am so frigging lucky  I can hardly stand it.  Life is good!
Working on the script of Blood Brothers today.  Have broken down the entire thing via Syd Field's method.  And now the fun begins...

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