I'm working hard at work formalizing the complex "inner work" methodology that covers the majority of what seems to actually work for cleaning the psychological architecture. Three primary pieces: Heartbeat meditation (self-love, forgiveness), Inner Child work (embracing life, creativity, healing abuse, energy, survival), and Inner Elder (acceptance of death, spirituality, ego extinction).
Having to try to create (or suggest) a syntax for addressing the work (basically in the above order: start in the "middle", drop to the "base", express "upward" from there) and spoke of a piece of the puzzle, the "Child Story" exercise. The following letter triggered a response:
I enjoy your stories and your
knowledge base about life in general.
Boy did I hit an emotional wall with
the Child story exercise; as my
father was emotionally unavailable,
no doubt from a personality disorder,
and mom completely old school
co-dependent, and my only older
brother molested me for several
years beginning at age 8 or 9.
However, was not really "aware" of the
implications until a traumatic incident
prompted my father, upon questioning,
to make some very bizarre statements
about my childhood obedience--and
like that the flood gates opened and
reality came rushing in, my "lost
child" still around, everywhere, after
all these years.
Anyway, one of the things I'm now
trying to figure out is what part of
my family was real and what part is
my mythical family--a true search
for the "father," and big brother.
I read some years ago that many
important writers had sustained
trauma at some point prior to
developing their "voice." I find
myself redeveloping that voice,
for better or worse, with a new
understanding of my daemons.
And so, a humble thank you, for
being one of life's teachers---you
have truly helped me along my path.
Best wishes, and keep up the "good" work.
Couldn't wait a minute to respond.
There is a process that will help you:
1) Make a careful guess about the "oldest"
you who was undamaged by your
environment. Perhaps six?
2) In your meditations, see light within your body.
This may take a few sessions. Imagine that you
are looking at yourself in a mirror. See the light.
Note and measure the QUANTITY of light.
(This will represent your perceived degree of health)
3) concentrate that light into a human figure.
The amount of light will determine the size
of the image. If there is only a tiny bit of
it, you might make something as tiny as
an embryo. Even a single fertilized cell.
4) If you concentrate on the light, it will
begin to grow, but DON'T let it grow
beyond the point that you believe the
damage occurred. You might maintain
this practice for weeks, months, or years.
5) When you have an internal sense
of being "ready" then let the "energy self"
speak to you. Quiet yourself and listen
deeply. I promise you will be transformed
if you will take his advice.
Blessings to you, my friend, and I am
honored to be a guidepost on the path.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Posted by Steven Barnes at 3:58 AM